All of my life, I have been taught that there is no waste of doing good/being good.
Also Mother taught me that being a good person takes courage, takes your self. By any means, you required to be a self-less person.
I have been watching countless title of movies, and the protagonist is mostly a self-less idiot. And most of the times, they don't get what they want in life. They gave them up to someone they loved, or cared about.
Turned out, that is true.

In real life, as I suddenly being 24. (YES, I didn't realize I am already 7 years away from legal age. Damn it, time.)
I have a lot of thoughts about it, and those thoughts were started because of the disappointments I encountered in daily life.
As expected from life. Best teacher.

When I started this post, I didn't mean to complain about life.
I just don't want to get used of being called "dangkal", just because my feelings were hurted by others and I stated my disappointment. It felt like I was the one to blame because I feel disappointed with other person's action towards me. Then how is it for them? Don't they have to think about others' feelings? Don't you have to try not to hurt others?
I was being hurted for every thoughtful things I did for others. I don't want to be spesific.
The thing is, it was hurts.


Words are mean.
Feeling is wounded.
Life happens.

I can't escape the cycle. Neither run from it.